Yesterday, I learned from my sister that our brother passed from COVID on Thursday in another state. He and I were estranged probably for over 20 years. I also am estranged from my mother for 14 years. There are reasons behind this. I am completely at peace with the choices I needed to make and thank those who have supported me.
Why judge if you do not know someone’s history and what they experienced? Because of my past, I personally had to work with three therapists over 30 years, learn to set healthy boundaries, learn to love and be kind to myself, release toxic relationships and beliefs, and come into my own through mindfulness, meditation, yoga and other healing modalities. I still today have PTSD from my origin story all the way through past marriages, friendships, and other relationships that were abusive in nature. However, I do believe that everyone has Basic Goodness, it’s there within us but some people here in this world cover it over with layers and layers of mud so they do not see it, the gold that lies within. Fear keeps us from our true nature. I know it was the case for me and glad to have risen above even though I still work on it each day.
I also learned that my brother had been turning his life around toward good and I was glad to hear that. I am sorry for the suffering his wife and other loved ones are experiencing at this time and I only wish them comfort and peace. I am still processing a lot of information new and old and doing so with compassion and tenderness to my heart.
We don’t know one another’s path, nor can we compare it to ours, but we can walk beside them in the spirit of loving-kindness. May we all remember peace and understanding in the new year.
When I made the decision early Friday (December 31st) morning to pause in-person sessions in Madison, it was before I heard the news. To me, it is confirmation from my Inner Guidance. UPDATE: I now plan to close my office.
1/4/22 – After continued days of meditation and attending to my Inner Guidance. I have come to the difficult decision to close my office here in Madison. My rent will be raised at the end of my lease on March 31st and I believe stepping away for now is the best solution. I am sad to do this as I moved in on April 1st, 2018 and looked forward to a long stay of serving you with mind, body, and spirit modalities. However, I do see this as temporary. I will be putting all my furniture and items into storage so that when COVID calms to a point that I can feel comfortable in providing in-person sessions again, I can look for a suitable location.
All the online offerings will continue. I hope you can join me for one or more of those.
I am glad we walked this path together. I look forward to a new year together.